Micro Blogging

Sometimes u feel as if a part of your own is conspiring against you, you want to win over certain situations, certain hearts, certain minds but no, you can't because as they say its all written, How long u may crave to endure that second that moment but its all a long long wait, and u still dun wanna give up,u still think still persevere everyday every second that it will happen certainly, one fine day at certain time at certain point but its all beep beep as if the person your calling is busy, and u wait in the queue for your moment of glory, the moment u can die for, u can lose anything for, even it means u have to mortgage your soul to the devil when your time is over. Is this Fate or the destiny we talk about, a never to be understood phenomenon, certainly not by us mortals, the so called class of living beings, but where is that living? Or is it what we called hope, but hopes do have their ends, their culmination, sweet or venomous, doesn't matter to me, coz that venom would have been more consumable than what this heart has to go through at times or most of the times. You will say i am confused myself, i am not confused but i am looking for certain answers, answers for which i have eaten my heart out, but does it bother anyone, the answer is something i am afraid to share, or it is something bigger than a simple yes or no. Desires are not meant to be cherished for too long else they become a pain of which there is no anesthesia, nothing i could found, or manage. Living is something else but living with desires when they have got their roots so deep in your umbra that it might be called distress, not sufficient. an agony, might work, excruciation, bingo! perfect!. Yes it is.